The Internet and Old friends

I was just randomly punching keys and visiting various internet pages when a familiar name appeared in my peripheral vision. Peripheral vision is the work of the rods, nerve cells located largely outside the macula (the center) of the retina. The rods are also responsible for night vision and low-light vision but are insensitive to colour.
But I digress........
Many years ago, in a different century in fact, I went to Art College in Tamworth, NSW. There were several highly talented individuals within our class and one of them was Charmaine, whose name I saw on the internet. So, now I'm searching for others I knew and one or two more have emerged, like Michelle and Kaye.
I'm delighted to see they are still painting and staying active, but at the same time it has shocked me into the realisation that I walked away from something I loved through a desperate lack of confidence - that monkey on my back that has stolen every banana I've ever been offered.
So now I'm miserable, but at the same time, inspired by these individuals, whom I miss.